By Anonymous

While I am waiting the train, I listen to my favorite song. But today, I feel very sad. I can not take the truth. The train arrives at the station. I ride in train to home. I am idly looking out of the window. I blinked in the sparkling sunset. My eyes are watery, so I wipe my tears. The train arrives at the nearest station. But I don't notice that. When I notice, the train goes last station. I change a train, I return the nearest station. I get off the train with a heavy step. I go home very slowly.

I open front door.
"I'm home."
I say. I can smell cooking.
"Oh, Emiri. Are you hungry?"
His said. I hesitated to tell the truth. My father always works hard, and does a lot of housework. I want him to not worry me. I decide to that I don't say him my truth.
"I am very tired. So I want to sleep from now."
"Are you all right?" his says and stares me worriedly.
"Don't be afraid. Good night. Please keep the dinner. I want to eat it tomorrow morning."
I get out kitchen, and climb the stairs. I enter my room and lie down. I sigh deeply. I listen to music on the stereo. The music is "I just love you." This is my favorite song. The music memories of the past.

When I was 19 yeas old, I met Haruto at the university. He picked up many photograph in the corridor. Photographs were falling from his hand. One of photograph fell near me. I picked up the photograph. The photograph was a beautiful sky. I admired the picture.
"Excuse me. Is it my photograph?"
"Sorry, I think this photograph is lovely."
"Really? Then I give you this photograph."
"Thank you. I'll treasure the photograph."
Then he said good-bye and left. I wanted know his name. I chased him, but I can't find him. I gave up look for him and went back home. When I rid the train I watch a bill. It was a movie bill. I was attracted to the movie, because main cast was my favorite actor and actress. I wanted to watch the movie.

"Yummy!! I like your hamburger steak."
"Today, you are in a good mood. Did you have a good time?"
"Yes!! But, I don't say you, dad."
"OK. I don't hear. But would you clear the table?"
"Of course, I will." I cleared table and washed the dishes. After that I got out kitchen, and climbed the stairs. I enter my room. I took out a photograph that I got from my back. I thought it was really beautiful. I wanted to see him again. What's his college? I was looking forward to going school.

Next day, when I went lunch at school restaurant, I found him. He ate a lunch by himself. I want to talk with him. At that time, my eyes met with his. He has such beautiful eyes. I thought the eyes I saw somewhere. I approached him.
"Can I sit down here?"
"Oh, you are... I met you yesterday."
"Yes. I'm Emiri Takano."
"I'm Haruto Ando."
His smile is amazing.
"Don't I know you from somewhere?"
"No, I don't think so."
I hesitated momentarily.
"The change the subject, I think your photograph is really beautiful. Is your hobby take photograph?"
"Thank you. Yes, I take a photograph in my free time."
"I want to take a photograph such yours. Please show me your camera."
He took out his camera from his back. He handed over camera to me. It camera was single-lens reflex camera. "Oh, this is so cool! I want to buy camera like this. But, I think how to use a computer is difficult. Is it difficult for me?"
"You can too. At first, it was difficult for me to use this camera. But, you'll soon get used to use it. If you are free, would you like to go shopping to buy camera?"
"I'd love to. After the class, I'll wait at the gate."
"OK, I'll go there. See you then."
"Bye-bye." I was glad to talk with him. During the class I thought about him. I thought this was too good to be true. (I can date with him who I didn't know his name.) I jumped for joy.
After the class, I went to gate quickly. He stood in front of the gate.
"I'm sorry to have kept you waiting."
"I arrive there just now too. Let's go."
We left for the electrical fittings shop. We kept quiet until we arrived at the station. We rode the train. I asked him. "Well, do you have girl friend?"
"No, I have no girl friend. How about you? I'm afraid that I have caused because I ask her out suddenly."
"I have not boy friend too. Don't be afraid. I glad to go out with you."
"Me, too." He smiled. Then the train arrived at the station. We got off the train, and went downtown. When I catch the reflection of ourselves in a building, I thought we were made for each other. I have never associated with boy. I was not all that love boy. But this time was different. I thought I seemed to like him.

We arrived at the electrical fittings shop. It seemed that he often came to this shop. "Emiri, Come on."
There were many cameras there. I was confused. "I don't know which is better for me. There are many too."
"Well, let me see. I recommend this camera. This is compact and reasonable. And I think you can use this easily."
"Thank you. I decide to buy this."

We went out the shop and walk the street. "Let's have something to drink."
"That sounds good."
We entered the café and sat in the window. "What would you like?" Haruto asked.
"Well, let's see, café au lait." "Could we order, please? Café au lait and hot coffee, please." He said.

We waited a little time, a waiter brought drinks. "This is a good place, isn't it? Where do you take photographs?" I said.
"I take photographs at the forest near the school."
"Is the forest private?
"Yes, but I often enter the forest secretly. There is lake at the forest. The scene from the lake is very beautiful!!"
"Wow!! I want to take a photograph there."
"OK! When is it convenient for you?"
"I'll free on this Sunday."
"OK. Then let's go to the forest this Sunday together."
"I'm looking forward to this Sunday."
After that we talk about trivial matters, and went out the café. Then, we said good-bye and rode on singular train. I was impatient to go forest with Haruto.

On Sunday, I arrived at the forest. Haruto was not there. I made a rendezvous with him at six o'clock. He came hastily and said, "I'm sorry for my late. Would you please run with me?" And then he pulled my hand.

It was very quiet in the forest. We arrived at a lake at sunrise. The rising sun was very beautiful. I have never watched the so beautiful scenery. I stared the rising sun not saying. He watched me anxiously.
"How? "
"Beautiful. I am so happy."
I was impressed with the beauty of the nature. "Thank you for showing such wonderful scenery."
He laughed with a smile. I took a lot of photographs while learning how to use camera from Haruto. The sky, flower, and birds. This Forest has a lot of things which I want to take. We took photographs each other. I was really happy, and I laughed many times.
"Shall we go?"
"All right. Are you free all day?"
"Yes."
"Then I want you to go together. Would you like to go to the movies with me?
"I want to watch the movie from way back."
"It is good. Let's go right now."
"Thank you."

We arrived at the movie theater. We bought a pop and a hot dog and entered inside.
"Do you like movie?" I asked Haruto.
"I like it, but I watch Japanese movie occasionally. Sorry."
"But, the main character of the movie is a university student. And the main character like to take a photographs same as you. Therefore I think that you can enjoy this movie."
"That sounds like fun."

The movie was very wonderful. The picture was beautiful, too, and the song of insertion was wonderful, too. "How was this movie?" I asked with worry.
"I was able to enjoy scenery by a clean movie. I was impressed by last scene and cried."
"I'm glad to watch this movie with you. I want to buy the sound track of this movie, please wait a little."
"OK."

When I went back the house, I listen to the CD I bought immediately. I like music of the lasts of the movies. The title was "I just love you". I just loved Haruto too. Then we were almost together at school. When a class finished, we went to the forest and took the photograph and sometimes went shopping. But Haruto was not a lover.

When half year has passed since I met Haruto, I felt feverish. Such a day continued. I couldn't get rid of a cold, so I went to the doctorl. And I underwent a inspection. I thought I'll get rid of a cold.

I checked with the doctor to hear a result of the tests.
"Ms. Takano." Nurse called.
I entered the room and sat down the chair. The doctor stared fixedly at me. She spoke quietly and deliberately. "Ms. Takano, you are infected with HIV."
"Really? It can't be."
"Now, medical treatment is developing. So, if you could find the medicine agree with you, you live as usual. We try our best together." She said kindly. But I couldn't understand easily. I couldn't believe it.

When I met a Haruto, I had no idea that I become a person who had HIV. The music stopped. I am idly looking many photographs that I took it with Haruto. I decide to tell my father about it.

I get down the stairs, enter the living room. Father sat dawn the sofa.
"Dad, are you free now?"
"Yeah. Are you all right?"
"Yes. I have to say you. Dad… I'm infecting with HIV."
My father doesn't say anything. He begins to cry.
"Dad?"
"Sorry, I should confess the truth to you."
"What?"
He began to speak quietly.

After I hear what he had to say, I couldn't help myself and burst out crying. (Unbelievable. But I couldn't take it all in.)

I'm Haruto. One day I met a sweet girl at University. I fell in love with Emiri the first time I saw her. But I couldn't confess that I love Emiri, because we are twins. Emiri is my sister. My mother died with AIDS 18 years ago. But before she died, she bore twins. The twins were Emiri and I. One of the children was infected with HIV. She is Emiri. Our father couldn't raise two children, so I was adopted. I heard Emiri does not know truth. I can't tell the truth to Emiri.
But I think I should say everything to Emiri.
I called her.
"Hello. Emiri."
"Hi, Haruto."
Her voice has no vigor.
"Are you feeling sick?"
"No, I'm just tired."
"Well are you free tomorrow morning? I want to watch the sunrise again with you at the forest."
"All right. I want to too. How about six?"
"OK. See you."

Next day, we go to the forest together. When we gaze the sunrise, Emiri begin to cry.
"What's happen? Are you okay?"
"Sorry, Haruto. I love you. But I have big problem. Well..."
"Please wipe your tears away. I know everything. We are twin. And you are infected with HIV."
"Why? Why do you know?"
"I heard everything from foster parent. But I don't know you are Emiri, when I heard your name at the university."
"Are you my brother actually?"
"Yes."
"When I heard the truth, I didn't want to believe it. At first, I'm sad that you are my brother because I loved you. When I saw you, I recognized your eyes. Your eyes resemble my father. So, I had a close affinity with you. From I met you, every day was special. Thanks to you, I like camera. Now my hobby is taking a photograph. Do we take a photograph together? "
"Of course. To tell the truth, when I met you first time, I fell in love you. But I can't say I love you, I knew the truth. From now, I'll support you as your brother. But, I want to be your boyfriend only today. I just I love you."
"I just... I love you too."
Haruto give me a kiss sweetly.

I think... It is the only kiss, the love I have ever known...